Some updates b/c well... I uh, haven't been on it this week.
I kinda skipped two of my classes this week. Bad of me, I know. I was really stressed out at the beginning of the week and sometimes it takes stepping back from everything and having some "me time" to make myself more prepared for life.
I need to stop by school and do some homework in the lab, but I reeeeally want to go out and have a picnic in the park today by myself. Maybe get a coffee... and just sit under a tree and sketch. I have not been a "from real life" type sketcher since I was a kid ...who wanted to draw everything. I really feel the desire to reconnect with that. I drew (a really crappy) rendition of the Blue Bottle Cafe the other day... was just sitting under the sun in Mint Plaza and it was very nice.
Me time included mostly little things: One was driving the long way home through the back hills. Yay for roads, tops down and sunshine ...I've lusted over being able to do such things for the three years I was car-less. Feels fucking fantastic!
I was at Blue Bottle (again) instead of one of the said classes. Sat in the sunshine, had a smooth foamy mocha and some fat slices of toast w/ strawberry preserves. Simple and delicious! Sketch turned into a fun work I'm turning in for a HW assignment.
I drove down to Stanford/Palo Alt last night with
phoenixdown7. I gave her a ride back to her car (at the the train station there) and we then drove off to University Ave, got some yummy pizza and talked nerdy. LOL topics ranged from Obama to the latest Naruto manga XD I ended up staying at the Borders there until 10:30 by myself reading, it was really nice. (Again another "me" thing I need to do more often).
Since I've been able to spend significant time w/ significant others, I have significantly ignored a significant number of my friends. :P This started when I was 18ish... so *counts* 6 years now I've been putting them second where before they were my whole life (you know, b/c I hated school). I don't think either approach is perfect. Your time should be split a bit more evenly between work/passion, love and friends... never completely in just one direction. And well, obviously I need to work on that.
I want to make more of an effort to be here in the present with the people I like around me.. rather than focus so hard on the future that I ignore the good times I could be having. I can't wait for Nicole returns to Berkeley this weekend so we can watch more Gankutsuou. I never really posted about it, but we reconnected before break. She had been in France for a year, though she's been back for a while now... Someone just needed to make an effort. We made a total nerd day of it ~ JUST like old times! She even had the Utena soundtracks on her ipod, so we blasted them in the car and sang a long XD More misadventures are in the works for the future.
Other local friends I should focus on a bit more: Maritess and Joy. Hm...
Side note: I've been really bad about stretching three times a day. At the time time I'm always hyper aware of how I walk and what hurts now. Gotta get back to the gym w/ Nick today. :D Seeing people run around (b/c SF is ALL about runners let me tell u >.>) still makes me feel bluh. D:
Originally posted on kinnaree.vox.com