Sorry, I had to do something "for me" last night. Now on to... muscle overlays ;_; blaaaaaaah

You know how awesome it is when a group of great people get together (why is getting together so hard) to do something fun? Yeah well.... I haven't done that in a while. Also, I have not been an "organizer" of such a get together for years... YEARS! So I asked Jeanie if she wanted to see a movie... and then I thought why not ask Katie Monica as well? And then Jo happened to call me and so what the heck I asked her as well. Jo invited Anna & Andy, which is cool too... and Nick obviously is going. So yeah, fun movie, awesome company, sounds like good times!
How hot is the bounty hunter??? zomg!

Also: I picked up two WoW books b/c u know.... I love the story line. <333 So far: pretty freakin awesome. Also Awesome: This PA Comic:

I am sad to go, but also excited. Nick and I are refocusing our lives, I guess you could say. This past winter/fall he had a rough time and is now not in school. This was a failing on both our parts. I was busy with my own school work (excelling and enjoying it greatly). When we were home together he and I spent a lot of our time gaming. While it was great fun, I failed to see how we were falling behind with our real world responsibilities. I didn't notice his unhappiness and struggles with school. We both focused on raiding and guild politics, which in the end was neither productive nor relevant to our long term goals.

Initially I cut back WoW to once or twice a week to raid, but I've come to enjoy having all my time for getting homework done in a more leisurely fashion and keeping up w/ doing chores. The boyfriend is also not playing anymore and has a few daily chores to "grind rep" w/ the girlfriend faction ^^; We hit the gym or a book store to read instead of raiding.

Wednesday night raids really only made things harder for me because with each boss downed I would have some pretty intense gear lust: "OMG Tusker (a really bad ass gun) dropped! Nooo I lost the roll!? GAH! Well... maybe if I show up on Saturday to raid..." It became this sort of unpleasant inner battle. I feel I have to lead by example and not fall prey to (honestly) my addiction to WoW. I am focused now on helping my boyfriend by keeping him busy and on top of things like, seeing a doctor for help w/ stress management.

I can't say if I will come back or not, let alone when.

I often told my friends that the hunter class was "the best" and "the most fun" in the entire game. If I could, I would be happy to lend a copy of Serith as a trial for any friends who were curious about the game. I have personally seen the fun that can be had between parent and children in the form of cooperative gaming and it had also allowed me to one again be able to "hang out" and "do things" with dear friends who were very far away.

Serith is my first MMO character and the only one that I truly enjoyed playing. I loved everything about him, from his funny green hair down to his oversized monkey-like feet. All of his accomplishments and foibles have been my own. And the name Serith has become almost like a pet name for an alter ego that I've grown to love. Even PL (Pridelord), my black lion, was something I couldn't let go off in leu of a more effective pet. I have a whole album of my exploits and antics with Serith, my boyfriend, my brother and my real life friend's toons.

On one hand, I want to purge everything of WoW from my life at this moment. The minimal time investment needed to maintain Serith is too costly given my current school situation/work load and playing in front of Nick, I think, would be a bit cruel. On the other, I realize I am probably overly possessive of Serith and what he has meant to me. Recently lending him out to friends was an exercise in letting go a bit (but not throwing him away). If I return to WoW, or play any MMO for that matter, it would only be once both my boyfriend and I are past school responsibilities and have stable job schedules ...and maybe on summer breaks before then. Even if it is three or four years before I ever play again, I would like to think that Serith and PL are still there waiting for me ...a pair of broke hobos in all expired epics. ^^;

As much as it pains me to admit it, I spend too much time playing WoW. *sigh* Yes, it has come to that point. I realized this when suddenly none of my pants fit as well, or at all >.>. Dresses that looked lovely before seemed stretched as if I were fitting them not over their owner but a whale. With the holidays coming up, where I'll be seeing everyone and all sorts of crazy picture taking is going to going on... I srsly need to drop some poundage. I'm gunna be honest and say the extra weight hasn't bothered me, as in I'm not really insecure about it on its own. Both Nick and I think I'm sexy.. and I enjoy having thrown guilt and worry to the wind when it comes to good food and drinks. I just know that A) it is unhealthy... and I already have enough of those types of problems as it is. B) I hate hate HATE coming home and having my family go off on me on how fat I am. I love them dearly, and I know they love me... but we're the kind of dysfunctional family the communicated through ribs, jabs and full on arguments. So to have "BIG BRIEEEE" chanted at me as my brother stomps into the living room sumo style, is not a holiday "tradition" I want to continue.

Also, as to gaming, I've been kind of getting tired of it. Not the raids per say, just the _having_ to be at them (which is an understandable requirement given the needed organization of a raid)  and some of the unsportsmanlike behavior ... like ppl having pissing contests over damage. Honestly, I'm always #2 on more focused fire bosses and #4 on more AOE behavior and neither of those placements makes me a better player than anyone else. I mean, we have healers who do no DPS and ppl who have to work on crowd control (Like me!) so DPS dips down.. And that kind of attitude undermines the team work aspect of the raiding, and I'm honestly quite sick of it. It is becoming a chore and I'm not paying money and spending my free time to do some worthless chore. Anyway, I discontinued my account, ie as of Nov 27, I won't be able to  log on. December = finals projects month. In the mean time I am not signing up for raids and I've blocked access at certain hours as sort of a reminder to myself to find better things to do during peak hours of the day. I actually didn't bother logging on at all yesterday. I mean, I thought about it... but it just didn't happen. Anyway, I now have a lot more time to work on school stuff at leisure w/o cramming. I dunno, I was kind of in this tunnel where all i wanted was to raid raid raid, gear up gear up gear up. I still love WoW and I still want to raid and gear up eventually, but I think I need a breather... and then go back into it whenever with much less intensity.

Here's hoping I get my ass to a gym in all that free time... >.> blarg!

Attack of the internets!

I missed seeing David FUCKING Eggers doing a reading today b/c I fail at life. What kind of book nerd am I?!

I want this sweater for Christmas/my birthday to wear with this t-shirt:



I have a midterm project 2morrow that I'm going to work on... in just a minute. >.>

I made chicken with pumpkin glaze tonight for dinner. Mmm mmm good!

I need to talk to/hang out with more my SF girlfriends... Jo (who I met on the train to PAX)Char, Joy and Kat from class, I luvs you all! And I hate that I'm so antisocial. ;P

Brian! I'm sorry I missed your call. I was raiding  with ma guild i.e. pwning teh hordies w/ my legendary DPS XD and now it's too late to call you back. :(